these girls are literally the best
Awwww I love you Katie! <3
I think Sigma Alpha Iota Formal 2013 was a success.
Every single person in these pictures, I love with all my heart and soul. My boyfriend, my big, my best friends, my sisters… the people who make my life worth living. The people who make all of the hell that happened this year worth it.
I am so thankful for them right now.
hi i’m Courtney
i’m not a skinny girl
i have wide hips and stretch marks and cellulite and stomach rolls
and you can see my thigh fat bunching up in this picture
but it’s part of me whether I like it or not
someday i’ll be okay with it
I have spent the last three days in bed coughing out my lungs.
I don’t feel like doing life today.
People have been telling me I look really different this year… and honestly, it’s because I’ve put on weight.
I was looking at pictures from the end of my senior year/the first few months of college, when I was at my skinniest since I hit 100 pounds at 13. I was starving myself, I had just broken up with my boyfriend of four years, and I was adjusting to the new experience of college very poorly. I was probably around 10-15 lbs lighter than I am now, and it’s been very difficult for me to deal with knowing I’ve gained weight… ESPECIALLY this year, as I have been eating a more “normal” diet. It’s SO hard for me to accept this new chub on my body, and every time I put something in my mouth I think about it.
But I’m also a lot less sick than I was in the first three pictures. And I can acknowledge that while I look very thin, I don’t look happy. You can practically see the misery in my eyes. And in the bottom three, even though I look pudgier, there’s a lot more shine. This year has been awful but even throughout it, I seem so much more alive in the bottom three than the top.
These pictures still drive me nuts. All I see is my stomach pudge, all of the fat in my arm, the extra fat in my face that makes it so round… I still wish I was at the weight I was last year/even lower. But if the weight I gained was weight gained in health…
It has to be beautiful, right?
This is a picture of me and my Mangie taken in 1998, when I was five.
I miss her very much. And it makes me feel very sad.
I feel very ugly today
so I took an old picture I like of myself and made the colors pretty to make myself feel better
Me attempting to be cute while sitting desk duty in my building…
My boyfriend bought me these headphones for Christmas! They are absolutely wonderful. My ears have been spoiled.
My Christmas letters finally came in :) Me spoiling myself… please ignore my fat legs.