February 2011
40 posts
January 2011
44 posts
College.
My OSU audition is in a week. And yet I’m not worried at all. As a matter of fact… I feel absolutely nothing.
I’m not looking forward to it, that’s for sure. I could be stuck in that school building till as late as four. I just want to get what will surely be an exhausting day over with.
It feels so weird, though. I actually had a countdown till the day when I would walk...
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I wish you were here...
Don’t you fret, I don’t feel any pain A little fall of rain can hardly hurt me now
Just hold me now, and let it be Shelter me, comfort me…
I feel like my past is a movie.
I can play it back and watch it in my mind whenever I want, but that’s all it is- something visual to be played back. Not something I actually lived through, and experienced, and felt.
It’s only when I’m at my lowest do I remember the fear, and the pain, and the self hatred, and the insecurity and the…
… I shouldn’t be dwelling on anything negative. Today was...
Soooo... Capital.
OHMYFRIKKEN GOD.
I never knew that an audition could go so well! AHH!
Okay, well first off, I looked really fat and my hair was staticky and disgusting. I’m just going to throw that out there before I get to the good stuff- it drove me NUTS the entire time. And I really hope they didn’t look at me and go ‘ew’. But anyway.
AHH. Okay so first of all, I met up with a lot of...
I'M gonna kick some ASS! (Right?)
I’m going to blow away that school to PIECES.
… I’m going to wake up with a hoarse voice like I did this morning and fail.
I’m going to sing my audition songs the best I’ve sung them so far!
… I’m going to make so many stupid mistakes.
I’m going to walk out of there feeling confident and assured.
… I’m going to be remembering all of...
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I hate mirrors.
In every picture of myself that I’ve seen lately, I’ve thought I’ve looked fatter and fatter in each one. Every time I look in the mirror, my thighs and stomach look bigger, and I can even feel more fat on my legs just by touching them :/
I really wish this little inner demon would go away and leave me alone. I have too much going on right now to worry about this…
In my...
This fire in my skin;
I’m so obsessed with this right now. It’s brilliant. EVERYTHING about it is brilliant. I love the Little Mermaid, but this is possibly the best scene in any Disney movie! It’s so deep, it’s so corrupted, the music is brilliantly composed, and it deals with themes of corrupted religion and temptation and lust… IN A DISNEY MOVIE!
So brilliant. So amazing. Words cannot...
I'm standing at a crossroads.
This four day weekend hasn’t been as relaxing as I would exactly hope, but there has been some good that’s come out of it.
Meanwhile, my future is an absolute mystery at this point. It’s pretty much obvious to everyone that I am dying to go to OSU, and that’s been true for a great number of years. But now that I’ve been taking voice lessons from someone at Capital...
I got a letter from Capital University today.
The thing about Capital is that they show a continued interest in you. They’ve sent me more mail telling me about their music/academic program than any other school I’ve applied to, and since I got my academic acceptance letter a while ago the letters have just kept on coming. But of course, waiting for the academic acceptance isn’t as nerve-wracking as waiting for the...
“To these patients, their disease had become part of their life, their identity,...”
heyemily829 asked: Courtney,
I just want you to know that you are so much better than you think you are. I want you to know that I care about you, and I am SO glad to have someone like you in my life, and you not being in it would just be unbearable. Courtney you are BEAUTIFUL, and I know right now you may be thinking otherwise but you need to know that there are so many people who care about you and so many...
I just want you to know that you are so much better than you think you are. I want you to know that I care about you, and I am SO glad to have someone like you in my life, and you not being in it would just be unbearable. Courtney you are BEAUTIFUL, and I know right now you may be thinking otherwise but you need to know that there are so many people who care about you and so many...
About a month ago, my mom called me during school...
Of course, those are never words that you want to hear. For whatever reason, I automatically assumed that I was in trouble of some kind and expected to hear something horribly wrong that I had done without even realizing it, or perhaps even worse news than that. The seconds between when she had muttered that horrible sentence and when she muttered the next horrible sentence felt like two minutes...
I've kissed more girls than guys in my life.
I’m also completely straight.
What is this nonsense?!
Emily tells me I have a ‘Katy Perry’ complex… She’s probably right.
Or maybe I’m just friends with too many lesbians »
when will the happy ending come? →
I usually don’t turn to youtube for things but I just can’t keep these thoughts stuffed in my brain
Saw someone else did it and stole the idea...
15 Random Facts you probably could have guessed about me if you tried:
1.) My favorite color is blue but I’m also in love with red.
2.) I consider myself a complete geek, and I’m proud. :)
3.) There’s nothing in the world that I hate more than being lonely. Sadly, for whatever reason I tend to feel lonely a lot of the time, even though I don’t always have a reason to.
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